(CAUTION DEPRESSING CONTENT)
From my point of view:
It takes many things to create true depression. Genetics. My Mom and grandma had it. Also negative input creating insecurities and low self-esteem.
As a believer, could you hate yourself so much that you would want to commit suicide so that someone else would be saved.
This is beyond worthless. Somewhere, some how you got the idea that you couldn’t get anybody else’s approval including your own and every time something happened that you thought confirmed that you didn’t grieve the loss and go on. No, you were suicidal.
Depression and the sometimes resulting suicide are a dead end street. A depressed person feels rightly so that they go down that street alone and no one would or should miss them.
Depressing isn’t it.
Some say depression is anger turned inward. And when it boomerangs, the suicidal person can take someone or many someones with them. Depressing isn’t it.
The person committing suicide this way may feel that they will not die in vain that way and that other people will feel the pain they feel. I am not advocating this; but it can happen and people wonder why.
Lack of support, feeling isolated, unimportant combined with a chemical depression can be deadly especially if the person feels that they have no one and no where to express this any other way.
It can pass but like post-traumatic flashbacks can reoccur anytime without warning especially when a person is alone and vulnerable.
Handling depression takes a whole lot of support and these people feel that they do not get that. Some people hide this vulnerability just because they are vulnerable. It’s a “Catch 22.”
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